Have you ever noticed how easy it is to be nice and encouraging to other people, but not so much to yourself? That’s how it is for me at least. I sometimes find myself encouraging people in the very same areas that just a few hours before, I was discouraging myself about. It’s frustrating. I find that when it comes to myself, I’m a total mean girl. To me. I don’t need any help from anyone else, I can be my own worst enemy.
When it comes to other people, I think it’s easy to have more perspective. I can sit and listen to someone tell me a story, even a discouraging one, and I can somehow find the good in it, the good that will come out of it, or even just the ability to encourage them to hang in there and keep on going because the best is yet to come. However, when I see my own story, and only find all the things that are hard, the things that feel impossible, and then stay focused on those things. There are certain subjects that are total “triggers” I think in our lives. Those things that set us off and get us on that road to binge eating potato chips and staying in our pajamas because “it’s just not worth trying”. I’ve got some of those triggers. The car I drive right now. My extra abdomen fat. Seeing certain things that I’ve wanted my whole life. Yep, those are the things that can send me into a box of kleenex, feeling like all of life is hopeless.
Gah. What are we supposed to do though, avoid all those things that remind us of the stuff we have yet to accomplish? Just not look at the things that hurt us? That’s impossible!!! No, I think it’s time for me to learn some self discipline. I think that I need to start policing my thoughts a little bit better. I need to start talking to myself about all the good things that are yet to come and the good things that have already come out of the difficulties. Because they’re definitely there, but I need to stop ignoring them so much! I think this is so much easier said than done. I think that sometimes it kind of feels great to wallow, to be negative, and to let myself just “feel” everything that I’ve already felt a million times before, and honestly…it’s time to stop. If I can encourage other people I can encourage myself. There’s a new sheriff in town, and I’m not letting me get down about things that can, and WILL change!
Let’s talk about these pants. I don’t know if there is much to say about them because…well when you see the photos, you’ll get it. They are custom embroidered and hand fringed by @township31 on Instagram…she has become a dear friend and, well, I pretty much have a list a mile long of things she is custom doing for me. My gosh. She’s so talented it’s not even funny! These pants are a pair of Current/Elliott flares that I’ve had in my closet for years, and I sent them to her to add some fringe and embroider the booty. She came up with the rest and added some AMAZING stars on them (because rainbows and stars!!!!). She’s a genius with denim, leather, and a needle and thread among many other things that she creates!
The first time I wore these pants, I felt like an old timey sheriff. So now I call them my “sheriff pants”. I like it. Time to start dressing like a sheriff…and acting like one! ;)