Do you guys ever struggle with aspects of your personality that maybe aren’t bad, but you just feel self conscious about? I’m betting the answer to that question is an across the board YES. I tend to be a bit harder on myself than some are, but I know there are many others out there like me. And there are things about me that I’ve tried to change, but have come to accept are just parts of who I am…and that I need to embrace them instead of trying to reject them!
I talk. A lot. Shocking I know. This wasn’t always the case. When I was younger, being an only child who was homeschooled and had little contact with other kids my own age…I was pretty quiet. People who knew me when I was younger always say the same thing: “Oh I remember you! You were ALWAYS reading!” Yep, I was always reading because I was bored, lonely, and well, I loved to read. I was so quiet, that when I auditioned for a musical at my church, I didn’t get the part because no one could HEAR me. Let’s fast forward. After growing up with non socialite parents and being at home nearly all the time, I finally got to go to a teeny tiny Christian high school that was small, yes, but there were other HUMANS MY OWN AGE there. Because I loved to sing, I joined the informal choir/band that my school had. The first time we all sang together, I remember standing in the back row. We started singing, and this one guy in the front row who had absolutely no care about what people thought about him perked up immediately. I saw him look to the left, then to the right…he kept singing, but he started to investigate what was going on. He slowly walked by everyone in the front row, eyes squinted, clearly listening for something. He then got to the next row and walked slowly by everyone again, putting his ear up to each person and then shaking his head. He got to the back row and again, went person by person till he got to me. He put his ear up to my face, smiled, and pointed: “YOU! You’re the singer lady!” That was what he called me for the rest of the year. He heard me all the way in the back, which is where I was always put from then on because I was always LOUD. The girl who got denied a role in a musical for not being audible was now drowning out everyone else in the choir.
I hear all the time: “You talk a lot…you’re so animated…you’re loud…” it’s a constant state of being for me. And to be honest, I often feel SUPER self conscious about it. I don’t try to talk a lot…I just have a lot of words. There have been plenty of times when I have left a meeting, a hang out, or a public place, and berated myself the entire way home. Why couldn’t I just talk less? Why couldn’t I just be one of those super cool quiet types? There are times when being told I talk a lot makes me feel so embarrassed and so ashamed of myself. I spent a few years trying SO hard to not talk too much. To be different. To not talk about what tv show I just watched or the super fun dress I got on sale or the funny thing I just read. I would tell myself to just SHUT UP. But it never works. The words just tumble out of me like a never ending waterfall and I will always share what funny thing I just saw and what new outfit I’m so excited about. It’s just who I am. And all those years of being a quiet wallflower child were just NOT ME. I should have had the confidence to be in musicals and to be running around trying to make people laugh. Now I have the freedom to be me, and it’s all just coming out of me naturally.
I love this dress because it is loud. It’s fun, bright, happy, beautiful, and LOUD. I love it on it’s own and I love it over skinny jeans. It’s fun and it just feels so like ME.
I LOVE vintage dresses. This amazing vintage house dress is from Village Vintage in Arroyo Grande and I actually just bought it without even trying it on. AND I love it more on than I did when I saw it in the store. I love how kind of 1960s/70s it is and how fun it is to pile on jewelry and add to it! Boots are Frye’s from a few years ago and the jewelry is all vintage.
Because it’s “winter” in California (I use quotes because while many of my Instagram friends are buried in snow, I am wearing a short sleeved dress outside), I added some skinny jeans. I think there’s so many ways to style this dress. I thought it would be fun to simplify the jewelry and simply add a pop of orange with the boots and the necklace to bring out the orange in the dress. The boots are from Urban Outfitters and they are the perfect retro bootie for the season. Or in my case, forever because I’m stuck in the 1970s. :)
Hope you love all the fun parts of your personality, even the ones you get lots of comments about!
Happy middle of the week!